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We arrived home yesterday to cold cloudy weather. I already miss Florida. It was great to look out the window and see the ocean and the boats and know that it was nice and warm out there. Back to reality now.

We were thrilled to get back home to the dog. We both missed her terribly. But I am already ready to go back to Florida since I hate the cold weather.

Vacation

Well we can say for the most part our vacation has been sunny. But it has been chilly. Not as cold as it is at home. But too cool to be on the beach for me. I have had one beach afternoon so far. Looks like it will warm up for tomorrow.

We had our first anniversary yesterday. It was a good day for us. We went to the Clearwater aquarium and had a really good dinner. The first good meal I have had down here.

Tonight we are going to Belleair Beach and meeting my aunt, cousin and her son for dinner and a reunion of sorts.

Tomorrow we go to Seminole and see my brother-in-law and his kido's for dinner at their place down here.

We are having a nice relaxing time down here. Just ready for that northern wind to change to a southern wind.

I have to do what???

Yesterday I went to a Maternal Fetal Specialist just to be sure with my history of blood clots and my sisters problems when she was pregnant that I wouldn't have any similar issues.

The appointment went well. Everything seems to be moving along smoothly at this point the baby had a heart beat of 187 which is normal.

The Specialist did say that due to my history that she would like to see me taking Heprin or Lovanox for the remainder of the pregancy.

So say that do you know what I have to do now twice a day??? I have to inject myself in the belly...

I did also get another ultrasound done yesterday but the one picture I got is worse than the one I got 3 weeks ago. So I guess everyone will have to wait until the 20 weeks ultrasound to see another picture. And then we will know what gender the baby will be.

Also the news with the first ultrasound changed my due date to September 27th. Which means today I am 8 weeks and 4 days.

New Chapter

As most of you know my father did pass away on August 5th. Which is why I have not been blogging. I have been trying to close that chapter of my life and begin a new.

I have been given good reason to do that in the past several days. On Friday January 18 I discovered I was pregnant with our first child. I have since been to see the Doctor and found out that I am now 5 weeks pregnant (as of January 22) which means our little bundle of joy should arrive around September 24th.

So far I have only been very fatigued, had several headaches and heartburn. But that is much better than having morning sickness.

I will be having my first ultrasound on February 4th and I will share those pictures as soon as I can.

Sadness

I have watched this week as my father has struggled with death. Dad has fought the good fight. Dad is still with us. I am sure there is some reason that God has made Dad struggle this week. I just pray now that God will take dad tonight. Dad has started with what they call the "death rattle". I can't imagine that it will be much longer.

I love my dad and will miss him each and every day that I am alive. I will also be sure that my future children will know their "Poppy" through me and my memories of him.

Final chapters

This is the same title that I named the post that I did earlier tonight for my dad's blog. I keep telling him that I love him. He just nods when I do. The only words he expresses now are pain and his needs. I have done things the past couple of days I never thought I would have to do. Who knew. Right now my dad is resting comfortably. I don't know if that will last all night or just for now. He has been in pain today. We are giving him the medication for pain as often as we can. We have been all saying our final goodbyes for we know our time is short. Maybe not hours but definatly not more that days.
My advice for all don't be a dope get your physicals. And be sure to get any cancer screenings done you can. They are vitally important.

My hero

As I sit here at my dad's house, I feel a bit overwhelmed today. Dad is doing better this afternoon than he was yesterday when we thought he might not make it though the night. I want to spend I the time I can not necessarily with him but around him. In his house with his things. I want to be able to get up from where I sit now (on the floor) in the living room and walk to the kitchen or den and look over into my dad's bedroom and be able to just look at him.

My dad has always been my hero. And I know our time together on this earth is coming to a close. But soon my dad will be with his adopted brother and best friend Ralph, his sister Beverly and his parents.

I soon will miss my dad. I already miss who he used to be. But my hero is still laying in the hospital bed in the bedroom just off the living room a few feet away.